So I’d like to share a story, I’ll make it fairly brief. When I was around 19 or so, my first sip of alcohol happened, and that first sip turned into around 10 years of slowly increasing medication and it eventually became clear to me that that i had a problem. I turned to AA, not as a hardcore alcoholic, as many of those guys are/were but as someone who needed some semblance of a community. I could envision myself eventually filling those shoes, the shoes worn by a creator of destruction enabled by alcohol. I didn’t want that future for myself, but especially for my family. AA has filled that void, the community void I mean, and I haven’t had a drink in nearly a year. Anyone who really gets what AA is about quickly realizes that it’s hardly at all about alcohol, it’s about learning to “live life on life’s terms.” This post also isn’t really about alcohol. This post is about nicotine. Since I started drinking, I also started using Norwegian snus, which recently adapted to including E-cigs. I never really understood the draw or power of nicotine until naively trying to quit. I’m puffing an E-cig as I write this.
While trying to “quit” I’ve thrown away the E-cig at least 5 or 6 times and gone and bought a new one within a week. Every. Single. Time.
I’m not going to get too much into the psychology of this quite yet, just outline my basic plan with this story. My plan is to share the burden of quitting with my WordPress subscribers, some of which may share a similar issue. This will also bring in outside, anonymous accountability. I will share my thought process along the way, and post a quick snippet of what’s going on in my noodle each time my brain tells me I need to purchase nicotine. The plan is to make a post each time as an alternative to giving in to the impulse. It’s a social experiment of sorts. Any support you can give me along the way will be greatly appreciated! I’m going to chuck my E-cig, yet again. Wish me luck! 🙃
PS I’ve never gone more than a week without nicotine since I started, so this is the first benchmark I’d like to hit. If you have a nicotine habit which may or may not be a problem for you, please share below.
I don’t ever ask people to share my posts, but this time I will, as I need all the help I can get! So, if it pleases your little heart, please share this:)